I'm Climbing Up Those Walls Again

What do I say now? I guess I feel sort of scared. You all probably know why by now. I'm sitting here with my headphones on, listening to Sigur Ros, and bobbing my head. I'm keeping those happy thoughts flowing, when I feel nothing inside. It's like one huge void that's suddenly there. Ugh, enough whining. It's time to start living.


Listening to: Sigur Rós - Starálfur

Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredom's not a burden
Anyone should bear.

Constant over stimu-lation numbs me
but I would not want
You any other way.

Cause,
It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I said,
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive.

Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.

I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and we'll be
Well upon our way.

Blend and balance
Pain and comfort
Deep within you
Till you will not want me any other way.

But,
It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I said,
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive.

Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to.
Relax. Slip away.

Something kinda sad about
the way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything.
What became of subtlety?

How can this mean anything to me
If I really don't feel anything at all?

I'll keep digging till
I feel something.

Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax. Turn around and take my hand

Tool - Stinkfist

After having an away up about seeing Dawn of the Dead:


A Matt In A Box: oh no, you probably saw
Strika Jamz: Haha, yes
A Matt In A Box: noooooo
Strika Jamz: I can't believe it!
A Matt In A Box: it's not what it looks like!
A Matt In A Box: wait, we're talking about Dawn of the Dead, right?
Strika Jamz: I sure hope so

Woke up today with a really sore throat, so during lunch Mom told me to come into the office later for a rapid strep test. While I was there I tested negative, but apparently I have a 100+ fever. Right after being told this I began to feel crappy, so I have spent the day in bed watching movies... and not getting work done. I should be better by tomorrow though... I have yet to get permanently sick since I started college (with the exception of Whooping cough). To add to the pain I screwed up my knee doing a roundhouse kick (because bored guys like to bust out with kung-fu) so now I'm limping around with a fever and bad throat :-/

Done anything else this week? Not really... tried to work on my biology test a little. Went to the dentist on Wednesday. I'm having my teeth cleaned when I hear the dentist in a different room say to someone, "Now if you start to feel any pain, raise your hand," and I couldn't help but laugh out loud (well, gurgle). I imagined someone raising their hand sheepishly as the dentist made them wish they'd never been born... I think it would be funnier to see someone slugging the dentist the moment they felt the pain.

Just opened the top off a fresh Pringles can... and the seal says "made in the USA" which is good, because I don't want my fatty potato chips being shipped from Taiwan! Lo and behold! Despite the fact that it says Salt and Vinegar on the can, these are regular!! Damn you Mr. Pringle!!

If I'm better tomorrow...

Listening to:
Vast - Flames

I'll drown my beliefs
To have you be in peace
I'll dress like your niece
To wash your swollen feet

Just don't leave
Don't leave

I'm not living
I'm just killing time
Your tiny hands
Your crazy kitten smile

Just don't leave
Don't leave

And true love waits
In haunted attics
And true love lives
On lollipops and crisps

Just don't leave
Don't leave

Just don't leave
Don't leave

Listening to: Radiohead - True Love Waits

I, Robot = Hollywood skullf#$%ing Isaac Asimov

I don't know how many people are Isaac Asimov fans, but I grew up reading his books, and have loved every single one of them. Asimov was the first science fiction author to really think about the consequences of Robots.

He came up with 3 laws of robotics, laws that a robot's brain would be utterly dependent on, that were supposed to take care of most problems people could think about :

1. A robot may not injure a human being or, through inaction, allow a human being to come to harm.

2. A robot must obey orders given it by human beings except where such orders would conflict with the First Law

3. A robot must protect its own existence as long as such protection does not conflict with the First or Second Law

He initially wrote a bunch of short stories based around these laws, and they were compiled into a book called "I, Robot"



Hollywood took that and got this:

http://www.apple.com/trailers/fox/i_robot/

Apparently gentle robots weren't enough, they had to add Will Smith riding on a motorcycle and firing two pistols, they had to make the robots go crazy and start killing everyone! Jesus christ, why don't they dig up Isaac Asimov while they are at it and have Will Smith skullfuck him while diving sideways with pistols? WTF?